I really wanted to call this “Love in the Time of Corona” – but of course there are about 60 other think-pieces with this title and maybe we’re all tired of seeing it.
Sure, this is a little easier for introverts. Let it be clear that none of this is easy, for any age group or personality type. Honestly your pets are super happy you’re home. Maybe even your cats.
We all might be getting a little chubbier. (Which is OKAY.)
My lack of running around for eight hours a day like a crazy person is showing. Well, that mixed with beer/whiskey/whatever people have been leaving on my doorstep.
This is the most time I’ve had to myself since we opened the new restaurant. It’s been almost two years of constant worry and hustle — of reminders and alarms that I’ve turned off since we decided to temporarily close.
That was a gut-wrenching decision.
I felt like I had failed.
It took a pandemic to close our doors.
I felt so much guilt and pain for not being strong enough to make it work — to have to tell my co-workers that they’d need to be registering for unemployment.
And I was exhausted. Emotionally. Physically. If you’ve ever worked in a restaurant, you know the mental toll that it takes. In fact, I have so much mental energy left at the end of the day I can’t really sleep without just completely wearing myself out on Youtube tutorials.
Some days are foggier than others. You know this all too well.
That is mostly hope. Also, perhaps you’re less hungover from the night before. (Which is a good thing.)
I know we’re all hanging on, here.
I was talking to my Memaw a couple of nights ago. She’s 81 and has been through most of the hard things a person has to go through in one life — and something like this is new to her. It is a hard thing, regardless of age or social capacity. It doesn’t need to be said that being human is being social and that the best feeling is to be loved on by another.
Sometimes, it looks darker, like a box you can’t get out of. A heavy fog.
Hold fast to the things that make you feel strong — feel loved — feel heard.
We started cooking again this week.
If nothing more than to pay some bills, but mostly to feel somewhat connected again. The hard pill to swallow is that this changes everything. It changes our business — our hearts and those things that shake us to the core.
But there is a lot of love out there. The fact that we are staying put shows that.
I encourage you to keep reaching out to people. To check in on quiet friends (check in on your loud ass friends too.)
Be good. Take some deep breaths and give yourself loads of grace (more than you already should.)
I send all the love in my heart, however long it takes to reach you.
Photo: Tables in Waiting, Eric Woods of Petal